not a state of fury
not a state of bliss
trapped here in
a state of nothingness

not feeling happy
not feeling kind
but not feeling angry
am I only feeling blind?

an aching throbbing headache
without the feel of pain
a case of stolen money
with a feeling of sudden gain

missing all the things I love
there’s nothing that I miss
struggling happily
in a state of nothingness
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